New Lair of Thoughts

2.15 ramble.

How long would it take for you to realise that you’re alone in a world you thought was filled with the presence of people you can trust, and people you can depend on.

I’m tortured by one of my secrets. I made big in my head, when it is just really a common thing in the eyes of the public. Why big? Well, first thing’s first, when you’re do something that can disappoint people you love, why do it right? But, this rebellious spirit inside drives me right into doing it without caring further much about what people think, what more of what the people I love thinks.

Damn. I miss my friends. Those that I depend on to much to make my day. Now, I’m attached to boredom all day long, all night long. Saddening, yes. I’ll be so damn excited and ecstatic whenever I get to sms or chat awhile with my friends. It’s depressing to have a holiday which doesn’t involve any friends. Haha. But, this month, I’ll make a priority for family as it is the Christmas month. I’m damn excited for Christmas. I just love gatherings and whoring around the camera. Haha.

I still feel stressed up inside. I got this feeling that’s eating me up. I don’t know what it is, What’s causing it, or whatever. I can feel it in the eerie silence and makes me feel so down. Anyway, I’m gonna create more songs soon if I have the time.

It’s quite saddening that despite my update my wordpress, not many updated their link to my blog. It’s still going to the wordpress blog. Haih. Nevermind. It’s not hits that I’m after. I just wanna express and let people read. Probably hearing a feedback is better, but who am I to ask for more?

oOh!! Christmassss

Ps : I bought my xmas shirt ody. Nicey. Bum.