New Lair of Thoughts

Should I Delete my blogs?

Should I?

Happy Bday Babe!! - ok, make that happy Belated Bday Babe!!

Wait. clear the air first. It’s not like I didn’t wish u kan? ahahaha.

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Just late posting it in my blog bah. haha.

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Anyway, happy bday u grandma!! ahahaha

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I <3 u no matter if you’re old and wrinkly. Let’s grow old together? hahahaha

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Heee.

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Await my gift k.. hehe.

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Damn. I miss u.

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Nanti I bayar hutang k.. haha

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Ps: Count how many !.. anggap la dat one candle :P

Modelicious. haha

Hoho! Yeah! I feel so modelicious right now. Hahaha. My awesome friend and photographer-to-be : syahmi, took me while I was trying to model. ehe. It turns out nice ok. Hahaha. Credits to him, and me lah! I can model!! ahaha
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1. Here’s a shot of me texting la kononnya. Haha. Peduli apa I look fat. Haha. Know your angle ok. I know better. Hahahaa. I’ve been hooked by ANTM since season 1. Hahaha.
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2. Who said wrinkles look ugly? Not when you have the right face? ahahaha. I was going for the Korean look, but turns out I’m not thin enough. Haha.
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3. Hoho. Was acting cute, but seems like I made a fool of myself saying that. Haha. I’m always cute. Haha. VAIN!!
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4. This was an awesome shot!  I love this. Hahahaha. Know your profile bak kata Tyra Bank. Profile what the hell lagi tu? Boleh la ni. Amateur modeling. Hahaha. Nice shot Mi2. You deserve air suam for your effort.
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5. Ok. Give me a guitar, U get a performance. Give me a guitar in front of a camera, You get a mighty musical shot. HAHAHAHA. Bodo la ayat2 ni. haha. Oh, suka aku tengok rambut tu. Hahaha. Sebab bru pegi test2 Iron kat bilik Syahmi. Hahaha.
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6. Yeah, every insignificant thingamajig, can turn into a subject. Hahaha. Who’s room is dat? Hmmm.
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Hoho. ok, That’s about it for now. Hahaha. I’m just so tired now. Tapi malas nak tido lagi. I wanna lash out my tiredness here but I’ve read what Faris said in his blog, about not being emo in blog. Haha. Dude, I agree. Haha. I wanna feel good when I read back my blog when I’m old and wrinkly. Haih. Bole ke stay cute til I die. Hahahaha.
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Ok, his blog is awesome go read and learn. That’s how cool people blog. Hahaha. How he embed his memory with his wicked wit. Haha. Damn. Now i sound really gay. Shit. I didn’t mean that. HAHAHA.
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Babe, despite what’s written up there, I still love you okay. Hahaha.
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Oh, btw. Sigup habis suda. HAISH!! Sepa2 ada stock, bagi la sia ar. Haha. Ok, that’s it kot. Haha.
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Ignore the gayness of the whole post. I’m a bit high listening to The Weepies - Gotta Have You. Haha.

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Okay lah. Good nite? Come on, comment!!!

Simpan bah

Look right. Now, look left. Ok. All I see is food. Shit. Why the hell am I in the kitchen in the first place. Hahahaha.

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Seems like if this holiday have taught me anything, it’s how to manage yourself. Clearly, I’m still a pig at heart. I sleep in a sty, I sleep for a while and I eat to my bloating point. Hohoho. Apa buli buat. Di rumah saja boleh begini. Haha. When I’m back in UTP, aside from living in a sty, I won’t get this much supply of food. Huhu.

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Hahaha. Gila, obsess pula dengan food. Ok2, mari ubah topik. Jeng Jeng Jeng. Result dah nak kuar this Friday. Sebelum tu, baik hang out kat luar, consume some alcohols or probably get high smoking or probably just go play Dance Dance Revolution. Hahaha. Another obsession ni ba. Ok2, back to results. Ok, straight to the point : I’m fucking scared okay. I’ve never been this nervous about my result my whole academic life. I was pretty confident during UPSR and PMR to get straight A’s oh, and screw SPM. Haha. I got A for Sejarah and B for Physics. That’s so ironic, wtf-ly (Maylin, pinjam ur wtf trademark). Hahaha. So, I put no expectation for this sem’s result. I hope I do still stay in the Dean’s list, but I don’t know. It seems hard. Cis.

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Ok, just wanna shout out. I miss my roomate, out of sheer roomate love. Hahahaha. And maybe a bit of Gay love too. wakaka. Dia tagap2 sana ranau buat keja, sia babi2 sini kk makan jak. Haha.

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Been having some problems in my newly reconciled relationship. Now I realised. The problem always lies in me. It’s not that I don’t wanna commit. I guess the question is am I ready or not. I’ve been feeling lost these days. I wanna get over this feeling the right way, cuz she deserved an honest feeling. huhu. I know I heart you. Please do know.

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Oh, I guess I’m addicted to posting videos in my facebook. And I’m scared to tag people cuz of the many notifications they will get. Yala, people like my video, then people comment my video. Hahaha. Anyway, please visit my youtube. Spread Some Love… Click here : www.youtube.com/isinglikealunatic

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Oh, The Allah Issue, God save us all. I’m super thankful Borneo people are very2 mature in this. the one thing I’ve got to say about this is : Why fear being misled when faith is all about believing and practising. If your faith is strong, you won’t ever be misled. How fragile are your faith to attack people of other faith and to fight over for a possesion of a name. Don’t blame people to become defensive when all you do is attack. Amen. Peace.

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Ok, I probably should go. Hoho. oh, I just wanna help out my coursemate Faris and Adib to promote this awesome site they own! Come on people, click here : http://doezine.blogspot.com/

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Ok, should be doing chores now. and Glee. hahaha. I’m looking forward to be seeing all you guys back in UTP. You guys know who you are. hahaha. pokkkks!

2009 // ——> GONE!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

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If you look at your desktop clock, it’ll probably be showing you 11:19 AM. If you hover your cursor over it, the thing that pop out is Friday, 1 January, 2010.

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Ok, big deal, but, hey! it’s 2010 already! Damn it. Time really does fly so fast. It’s crazy enough to think how much have happened, how much I’ve matured throught the year, how crazy I got, how down I was, how ugly I was, how beautiful I was at some point.

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Every year, you see friends come and go. 2009 marks the very awesome start of a bond with my UTP batchmates especially my coursemates and the borneo people. 2008 was me entering UTP, adjusting. Last year was awesome. The friends you have right now are the ones you never thought was those that you’d ever be friends with. I got to see how I change with the environment, how I really adapt to some people and that was one of the better happenings of last year. I leaarnt the hard way that things are not always going to go my way.

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Love story was sucky too. It goes up then come crashing down. My world goes up, then it turned upside down. I guess that’s what it takes to be in love, it’s the risk you need to take, risking your heart. I’ve never found a way to forget her, and even though we’ve been separated by words, I still like her. Now, we’re back on track after settlings all of our misunderstandings and wrongs. I <3 her. I need her. 2010, please be good to us. When you were born oh 2010, our love was reborn too, :)

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Seriously, I’ve been a wilder and bad-er boy too last year. Haha. I tasted cigarettes, and alcohols to the point where I think I am seriously gonna be addicted. I’ve broken my own trust to myself never to go near those things. But, pressure got to me at some point and boy oh boy look at what’s around me. Friends for life and friends at night. haha. Those things are really good for only a second or two then they make you hate them for good for a lifetime of sickness to come. haha. But, I still need them sometimes ;)

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Oh, oh. I don’t know what else to talk about. Life is life. Live life to the fullest kan? Don’t stop me from moulding myself on my own. I know God is here along the way. He’s certainly guiding me through. Faith is all I have when there’s really no one else for me.

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Anyway, I ended my 2009 with a bang, I hope you have too! woo hoo. Let’s look forward to a great new year. Oh shit, results, please don’t be shitty. I meant what I said about looking forward to a great new year. hahahahaha. :) :)

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And I’m out. (yeah. first post of the year!)

Christmas Eve <3 

Yeah! It’s the Christmas Day eve. I’m really excited.

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Wahahaha. Ok, let me try that again.

I’M REALLY EXCITED!!!!!

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Well, I’m trying to make up time to post up some of my holidays pictures (and I have super loads of em) and enough posting emo-ish post for the moment. Hahaha. I wanna score happiness this Christmas! Oh, the joy.

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Have a great time people, please come see me again soon! ahahahaha

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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Confused

Been quite a week after I posted the 2.15 ramble.

I had too much fun time this week with my family this week and will continue the fun for the whole christmas week.

With that said, I’m somehow confused with who I am right now.

No, I was a good child and I still plan to be one. Just that some part of me changed and I know what have changed. I became a bit too rebelious nowadays especially with my decisions. I started doing thing that I’ve resented in the past. Before this, I never ever looked at people who do those things. I’ve tried my best not to be near stuffs that will just destroy me or change me. Simply because, I like who I was.

Yes. I changed. To the extent that I feel a I’ve matured even though I might have chosen the wrong decision. The fact remain I still have my inner self. The one that have been doing good to me. The one that made a friend to many. The one that even I, myself was proud of. The one I know that God is proud of.

I just wish people won’t place judgement.

But I know that won’t happen. One of my best and close friend told me never to bring judgement as an issue because people will always judge others. Like it or not, realise it or not, I do too. As a matter of fact, I do it most of the times : to people who are physically bigger than me, people who are personally more annoying than me or, even to strangers who did something that is different from my norm point of view. Yes. I place judgement. And I should stop asking for less from others unless I stop making more of it to them.

I’m a bit confused of where I’m heading now. Ok, maybe I’m really confused. What’s next? I should start living like I used to. Being happy and carefree and being so contagious to the surrounding. I should stop messing around with stuffs that worries alot of people that I care most especially my family.

Yes. I just HAVE to move on. I just HAVE to. I don’t wanna disappoint more people.

Anyway. I wanna sleep now. haha.

Going out later. Chow peeps.

I know.. another emo post. ahahahhaa

2.15 ramble.

How long would it take for you to realise that you’re alone in a world you thought was filled with the presence of people you can trust, and people you can depend on.

I’m tortured by one of my secrets. I made big in my head, when it is just really a common thing in the eyes of the public. Why big? Well, first thing’s first, when you’re do something that can disappoint people you love, why do it right? But, this rebellious spirit inside drives me right into doing it without caring further much about what people think, what more of what the people I love thinks.

Damn. I miss my friends. Those that I depend on to much to make my day. Now, I’m attached to boredom all day long, all night long. Saddening, yes. I’ll be so damn excited and ecstatic whenever I get to sms or chat awhile with my friends. It’s depressing to have a holiday which doesn’t involve any friends. Haha. But, this month, I’ll make a priority for family as it is the Christmas month. I’m damn excited for Christmas. I just love gatherings and whoring around the camera. Haha.

I still feel stressed up inside. I got this feeling that’s eating me up. I don’t know what it is, What’s causing it, or whatever. I can feel it in the eerie silence and makes me feel so down. Anyway, I’m gonna create more songs soon if I have the time.

It’s quite saddening that despite my update my wordpress, not many updated their link to my blog. It’s still going to the wordpress blog. Haih. Nevermind. It’s not hits that I’m after. I just wanna express and let people read. Probably hearing a feedback is better, but who am I to ask for more?

oOh!! Christmassss

Ps : I bought my xmas shirt ody. Nicey. Bum.